Rehearsing the Monologue

I have had more fun performing my monologue than I expected to. I remember feeling a little anxious at the start of the semester at the prospect of performing in front of others, but I enjoyed the class rehearsals we have had so far. In hindsight, I needed to do partake in the performance, because Anne’s coaching lessons have reminded me that I personally need to be more confident in my decisions, regardless of how small. When I practice, I can see that my actions look weaker even when I slightly second guess myself, such as faltering in the way I step forward or when I waver my foot as I stand still. I look lost and unsure, and all my mistakes are very clearly on display when I am the only person “on stage.” I remind myself before I begin performing to feel the roots extending from the soles of my feet straight into the ground and to feel the branches extending from my head into the ceiling. Anne’s analogy reminds me to stand with intention. This type of performance is very different from the public speaking that I have trained myself for. In other instances where I am presenting a class project or my thesis, I can feel more relaxed in my stance and in my gaze. In theatre, my every moment contributes to the message I am conveying, so every movement of my body and my face needs to be controlled. I sometimes become overwhelmed by all the aspects I need to consider, but I know that if I practice enough, then all the motions will feel like second nature.